Tuesday, April 28, 2009
{ 6:52 AM }
2 more daes to go and here i go.im turning 21!!omg.im getting older dae by dae.haha. well, lyk wat i sae, ma 1st wish is to have hym back. i dun tink i should be mentioning the name here. 2ndly, to have sat.ur.day.ers by ma side. 3rdly, i want a song!i mean a song written n sang by emself. Haha. From anyone will do! I will appreciate that the most. Yeah, i dun noe y, till todae, ya still in ma mind & heart. I have nvr ever wanted to open ma heart for another guy. I noe its kinda stoopid but this is something no one can ever get me awae from reality. I felt the pain each tym i tink about hym. De pain no one can ever imagine. Watever it is, i wish for the best. And it is alwaes to haf u back. Im still in lurv with you boy.
Friday, April 24, 2009
{ 5:52 AM }
I was wondering,every single day, why this things always come to me. Have i been a bad friend? After all i put myself into it, i make the circle of friends grow, at the end of it, i got step and thrown. Far away. Where is my wrong? Tell me. Don't say the work bestfriend for the sake of saying it or for the sake of the years of friendship we built. I've tried my very best to be nice to everyone one. But end of it, i'll drop. Each time i were to bring this topic up, i'll get response like "Mane ade, kau ni sensitive sangat lah" Before you people say this, have you people ever think how hard i try to put things in hand and in the end, i got shits back. I felt hurt. Its too painful till each time i think about it, my tears will flow down my cheek. Tell me, Show me and do whatever ya'll can as long as i know why all this things happen. I miss those times when all of us were together, laughing ourselves out like no body business and share our troubles together. Now, i got no one to talk to. I don't know who i could share my problems with. I got not even a person i could trust again to share everything together. Maybe because i'm fat & ugly, these are the reasons people stay away. Mum always remind me, not to be very nice to people as people will always step on my head again and again. But, i told myself, its ok. I know that they are my true friends. I was wrong. Totally wrong about all this. I really need a friend to talk to. I'm having a big problem now and i really don't know who i can express it to. The pain in me now is really killing me. At times, i just think that if i'm not gonna be around in this world anymore, everyone will be smiling. And that is when the sorrow's end. To the one's who is reading this, i'm very sorry if you people think that i got this wrong, its just the feeling i have in me and how sad i am now, no one knows except me, myself and i. Thanks for everything.
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Saturday, April 18, 2009
{ 8:59 AM }
Been very busy lately. Very2 busy with everything.Especially work. At the same time, i was too busy enjoying life with ma love ones. Yeah, the most important thing is, i've got all the pictures we took using Ikhwan's camera and just imagine how happy was i. Haha. But resizing 700 photos ain't funny at all. Tag along with brother to Dikir Comp, Trainings and lots more. Dun ask me y, i was just so much into Dikir now. So, i got myself busy with those. Ma 21st bdae is coming soon. Very very soon and i can't wait for the day to come. Taggin along with brother again to SAS chalet on the 30th till the 3rd of May. So, i can't wait for all the fun. And people, i want alot of gifts okae!! Haha. Nah, all i wanted was to be there celebrating with ya'll. N so, i have nothing much to talk about. Just feeling tired after a long week at work and staying late very single day. Photos is uploaded at Friendster & Facebook.
